Monday, August 24, 2015

我不快乐

我不快乐 我真的好不快乐

以为2014很糟

但是原来

2015, 也并不是那么美好

Read More

低潮期

最近真的好不开心。

所有所有的事情,太突然了。

有时候,我也好想离开。甚至离开这个世界。

可笑吧。

看似坚强的自己,有时候想的东西是多么的幼稚。

Read More

Sunday, July 26, 2015

重“心“ 出发

擦干了眼泪。重心出发。也重新开始。

要相信,我是可以的。

时间呀,快冲淡一切吧。。。

Read More

一百公升的眼泪,到标了吗?

夜晚,总是会想起。

一年了。我什么都不是。

不甘。还是不能习惯。

有时遇到很多事情,都要自己扛。

很累。

我不想再这样下去了。

Read More

Wednesday, May 27, 2015

我恨你,已经恨到一个无法止境的地步。

我恨你为什么这样对我。

我多希望下一个他不会是和你一样!

Read More

Sunday, May 24, 2015

怎么办?

这是什么感觉?

这样对吗?

我分不清楚。。。

可是,好像是。

Read More

Wednesday, April 1, 2015

四月,加油!

新的一个月又要开始了,时间过的真快。一年又一年,说过就过。唉。

不要唉声叹气了,收拾心情,迎接新的一个月吧! 老天呀,请您放过我吧,让我轻轻松松地过好不好?不要每天为了业绩烦恼就好了。

当然,其他的事也不想太多了。越去想就越觉得自己笨。

这几个月来真的好累。。。反复问自己,到底要纠缠到什么时候? 我想,就到此为止吧。

真的要好好爱自己。不要再随便去爱别人了。

Read More

Sunday, March 29, 2015

忧郁。无奈

无法形容此时此刻的心情。

到底我做错了什么? 为何上天要这样惩罚我?

和我一起真的这样糟糕吗??

还是你根本就不值得拥有我?

拜托。

Read More

五年了

转眼间就过了5年,不知道为什么突然想看看自己的部落格。回头看看当年的自己,好傻噢哈哈哈

前阵子真的好不开心,因为我那两年半的恋情告终了。。所有所有的甜蜜回忆,也就到止为此。

不开心是理所当然啦,但是日子还是要过。28岁了,我,一无所有。

反省吧,柯卉。

Read More

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Miss u, Daddy

Miss my dad in a sudden... Because Mum just told me that she went to the Chinese temple and "visit" dad. Something like "invite" my dad to someone's body and the person will help to sound out what my daddy wants to tell. Hmm...

Dad said he's living good. He got the "money" that we burned. Good to know that, dad.

And dad said he will be more happy if bro can get married and got a baby. Oh...Dad wish to get a grandchild...

The problem is, dunnot when bro can get married lorh~ Even gf also havent got! And mum said "How about u get marry first?" Oh my God... she indirectly ask me to get married!

Mum... do u know ur daughter been single for few years and still searching for her Mr. Right? And yet no one want ur daughter lorh~ =P hahaha~

Time flies and I'm 24 yo now... really OMG. I think if I reach 35 yo I still haven't get a man, I will cincai find a man, as long as he is a MAN and I WILL JUST MARRY!!!

Read More

A little bit update

My blog has been dead for some time..... Opps, is that BUSY prob or LAZY prob? =P

Hmm... I've changed a new job from past 6 mths ago..  Working in a bank now and what I can say is... "NO LIFE". Y say so? Working hours from 8.45am until 8pm and jam jam jam until home I think is around 9pm. what?! so late huh?! YES, if its compare with my previous job.. But no choice, work for money. At least this job can fulfill what I want. Part of my dreams comes true. No doubt.. This job bring me a joyful life, And it did bring me a lovely boy too! =P Glad to blend in this working environment and knowing HIM. My B zai~ wahahaha

Been for Singapore for my second visit last week. Both 3 of us like big kids while we visited Universal Studios! Have lotsa fun there and we took lotsa photos =) A tired but memorable trip.

Back to reality, chasing SALES again~! Arghh.... Gotta force myself achieve the Million Dollar Club for 2nd time.. How am I going to do it...?? I need motivation!!! Dunno why.. my mindset just SO BLANK.. Everyday brining the dead body to work.. Like corpse.. lolz.

God.. Pls... Pls... Sales!!

Read More

Sunday, December 19, 2010

SG Zoukout party + Xmas Trip

Purposely went to Singapore to attend the Zouk10ut party.... I have lotsa funs there! This is the best party I ever been... really! 

Let's the pictures tell....... Here we go! 


















Copy those photos from zoukout.com.... Lolz. Cos we don't have the great camera okay
Finally can see how beautiful of SG X'mas environment... All the chritmas trees is just... Awesome! STRONG christmas feel pls! ;)

I have a nice trip hehee


Thanks to our tour guide Mr. Chee Haw

Celebrating Rukawa's buffday at Sushi Tei

Happy Buffday Girl! 

Nicey Buffday cake

Iluma shopping mall

I lurve the Christmas tree color!!so sweeeeeet

Merry X'mas ;)

Orchard road

Funny Santa 

MBS - Marina Bay Sand








My Yam ice cream~ love it love it~! 

Me with the funky glasses

 Sugar cane + lemon

SG Airport 

Kerrie with her sushissss hehee


Nice~









In da partay!

I'm so exhausted....  

My new fren -Sabrina! Nice to meet u gals =)


 Just to say that : I HAVE LOTSA FUNS !!!! 




Read More

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Funz Saturday nite

Went to Kuchai Lama look for my Twaji Beee. We booked for legs massage appointment at 10pm sharp.

It's really so comfortable n relaxing... Finally my tired body can get release... Hmm... We should have massage more often! Okay. make it twice a month. Hehee

Jeff, Alkie and Zoe are joining us for the tea after we done our massage. We went to K3K Benta Kaya 桂三记 Coffee shop. What a weird name hahaa... But tell you what.... There have the GIANT curry puff! Nice taste.... hmm I rate it 7/10 marks.

During our conversation, I forgot what we talk about but I just remember we just keep burst into laughter! Beee.. I really can't forget the scene that day in da morning~ hahahahahahahaa~ 

And well, the two naughty males keep on editing my ugly pic.... Somemore posted in Twitter and Facebook =.= Really feel like smack "nine" them! Nevertheless, I still feel funny while I look at my own pic. Lolz~ 

Dare you cross the line? HohoOOOO

I have a fun nite with my heroes and babes! I lurve all of you. 

Friendship 4eva pls~ 

Read More

Not...Not...Nothing

Been dead for some time...

Now, should back on the track.

Yea he is NOTHING. Nothing than nothing.

Read More

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

真的很累。

一直反复问自己, 为什么我比其他人累?

看见其他人在无助的时候,身边都会有个人支持与鼓励,甚至可以解决金钱上的烦恼。

为什么我什么事都要自己解决?? 一个人去承担所有,很累。。。

要在我身边支持与鼓励我的人,其实不是没有,可是现在的我,真的没有心理准备要投入下一段感情。我想,我越来越不相信爱情了吧。。。

受伤的,总是我。唉。。

总有一天,我可以完全不需要靠任何一个人,都可以达成我的理想。

对,我要靠自己!!

只有这样,才能觉得自己是有用的。。。

至少,不需要看人家脸色,也是一件好事啊 = )

好吧。。加油吧柯卉。

Read More

Sunday, November 14, 2010

走吧。。。

重看了一篇自己的私人部落格。 眼泪不知不觉地掉了下来。

是感动? 是伤感? 还是讨厌这种感觉?

这种突然间一无所有的感觉。。。。

突然失去一个人。突然对人失去了信心,失去了信任。。。

话, 有多动听可以说得多动听。 但实际上呢? 做到吗?

做不到是其次,可是突然一走了之就是很不负责任!

对我,一点也不公平。

曾经,想要放弃的时候, 他挽留。

曾经,很相信他的每一句话。

曾经,在我说不要的事后,他哭着对我说不能不要。

曾经,被他感动得不顾一切地去爱。

最后呢? 离开的,还不一样是他。。。

早就知道这段感情不会有好结果,可是,我究竟在执着些什么呢?

生气,真的很生气。 始终有一天会分开,这,我了解。 以为奇迹会发生,可是,最后被选择的终究不是我。 我在乎的是,那个离开的原因。 能不能在一个明明白白的情况下,才分开? 他说,这是他欠我的。我知道,他只是不想说出那伤我的话。。或许,放弃我,比放弃其他的,还来得值得吧。

两个月前的我,真的接受不了那种从天堂跌入地狱的感受。那是我想象不到的。你走得好突然。

出现了,又离开了。留下了无数的问号,无奈。回去吧,继续你的生活,我不会再改变你了。


让他走吧。。。让他走回那原本就属于他的世界。

Read More

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Saturday Saturday~

Meet up with a long lost friend Jenna this afternoon. I can't remember how many years we didn't catch up with each other... She become more and more pretty nowadays =) Just a short tea session with her cos both of us gonna rush to other place after 5pm. She bought me some Lancome cosmetic from Singapore. I like it! Thanks alot my dear =) 




My upcoming plan after the tea session, actually is to heading to my new work place at Federal Highway, PJ. I wanna recognize the road and hope to find some short cut perhaps? Lolz. Thanks Alex and Shewyin for u guys's accompany...

We have our dinner at SS2, fresh frog porridge! Alex the one who recommend us about this... Really nice! 

The menu~


Gong Bou Tin Gai~


Porridge~


 Another bowl of Tin Gai but I forgot what flavor~


Omelette with Onion ~


My own bowl of porridge~


After dinner, go back to Kepong and drop dear Shewyin cos she is not gonna join us for the next plan. Fetch the pretty NZ girl Hwei Leng to go along with us... MOVIE! 

Bought the movie ticket but the show only start at 10.15pm. So, we decided to have a break at Gloria Jeans Cafe~


My Mint Chocolate Bomb



Lastly.... I wanna tell u guys that the movie I watched jus now.... is so so soooooo SUX!!! Omg, have u guys ever seen a movie with only ONE actor, whole film happened in the SAME place??? WTF! So low cost lorh this movie!!! 

BURIED!!! *vomit blood*




Read More